i was ecstatic to see the result "pregnant" this past Wednesday night; but i was all by myself and unable to tell anyone the news. i waited till brian got home and told him i tested positive. he is so supportive of this decision i am doing, so i wanted him to know as soon as possible.
on friday i told the intended parents via a beautiful smilebox message with a small note attached. they must have been able to see it quite quickly, since i received an email shortly back afterwards. they were happy beyond words could describe and we're thrilled to hear this news around Christmastime.
i have an appointment tuesday morning to get some bloodwork done per the intended parents contract and for record purposes for the state of Delaware. i am planning on having a home birth; my fourth one! i have located a midwife in Dover and i can't wait to meet her and talk about this situation i am in with my intended parents for their baby.
God does provide and i just got to keep my faith in Him. I look forward to going on this journey with them and when the baby arrives I have a deep hope to stay in contact through certain ways. This baby is a part of me, always will be, you can't remove that fact. But, I am willing to give up raising this child, because the intended parents have every right of being a parent as much as I do. I have already been abundantly blessed with three children~ I want to share that joy with those without a fruitful womb. I think God would want us to do this. He would want us to LOVE on another is this fashion. If I was in their situation, I would hope there was someone out there in this world willing to help me out.
this truly is going to be a unique experience, even if i do this again in the future; there will be none like the first.
i pray now for my health and safety in their baby's development; peace from all anxiety; comfort any sickness or pain i may come across; and most of all wisdom of how to tell others of why i am being a surrogate carrier for a set of intended parents.